Between houses, states and states of mind

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Hey, it’s me. The lady whose between houses, states and states of mind. Yeah, I’ve been a bit MIA lately.

The past two weeks have been spent in so many directions – a huge one being finding a tenant for our home. (Aside: If ever I doubted that I’ve reached adulthood, I am now finally convinced. Being a landlord has earned me total adulthood status.) Thankfully, we found a wonderful family of three to make our house their home. Whew! What a load off! They move in January 1st and the house is nearly ready for them. Well, truthfully it’s still in a very deconstructed (albeit painted) state.

We’ve been moving at full throttle for the past few weeks, which has been an unintentional distraction for me. I haven’t thought much about what I am actually working towards – a big change.

A big change into a set of unknowns. I have a vague idea of how it will look in a month – we’ll be living in downtown Portland temporarily while we look for a permanent place to establish some roots. I won’t leave the apartment without engaging my “good vibe/potential friend” radar. The Steel to Hawthorn Bridge Loop will be playing on repeat day after day. The Bodenettes and I will explore the ins and outs of everything. I will adjust my definition of rain. And I may even develop a taste for Stumptown. The newness will feel exciting and refreshing.

But, three months down the line is harder to picture. What will it all be like then?

Will I prefer craft beer? Will I drive an Outback? Will I beam with PNW pride and come to expect Northwest Nice? Will I feel at home?

We don’t leave for a week and a half, so I’ve reached the hurry-up-and-wait part of the program. The work is (nearly) done and it’s time relax and enjoy my family and friends here in sunny, familiar, beloved California. And as I start to slow down enough to listen to my own thoughts, I feel excited. I’ll keep saying that over and over. Because it’s true… and because I want it to remain true. This adventure is meant for us – I know it. So, I am excited (there I go again).

But, I am also nervous, anxious and unsure. And a piece of me wants to take the shortcut and bypass all the uncertainty, new friend dates and fake-it-till-you-make-it days. I want to arrive in the deeply rooted, safe, familiar place of home. But, the adventure is in the unknown and the effort. I look forward to all that I will learn and to the experience of growing new roots with my family.

So, I will just stop my schizophrenic rant and leave you with, I am excited. 

Portland dwellers and/or lovers: I would love to hear what you love about Portland. Neighborhoods, food, sights, people, etc. Get the recommendations going! Please!

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    Jana Thune
    12/30/2014 at 8:31 am

    Well stated in true Natalie form:)
    Get it Bodies!
    We’re so excited for you & yours!

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    12/30/2014 at 10:19 am

    I always look forward to reading your blog and I cannot wait to read more about your adventures! When I think about moving at this point in my life, making new friends is the most daunting/exciting part. I’m sure this move will be a wonderful, rewarding challenge! Wishing you the best!!

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    12/30/2014 at 11:52 am

    I don’t think you’ll have to engage your “good vibe/potential friend” radar. You exude that naturally. And the little Bodenettes certainly exude it too, in their own sweet way. I’m thankful for this blog and getting an in-depth look at your new life up north!

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    12/30/2014 at 5:46 pm

    I just found your blog. I was born and raised in a town west of Portland and now live in an apartment in the city. I love Portland. It’s a wonderfully small city that is extremely walkable and public transit friendly. Obviously, the food is great! Even when it’s rainy and windy you will find people out and about. I’ve lived a couple of different places and always ended up coming back home. This town seeps into your blood in the most magical way. I don’t get out a lot as I’m looking at going back to grad school (unfortunately, money doesn’t grow on the beautiful greenery), but let me know if you have any questions about Portland!!

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      01/14/2015 at 4:47 pm

      Hi Hillary! Wow, super delayed response. Sorry. We’ve been here almost a week. It certainly has a lovely draw to it. Especially eith this sunshine! Were living off Burnside and 12th now and really enjoying it.

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